Wednesday, April 14, 2010

Left Behind

All things you never did are left behind

The talks you never had, the Saturdays you never spent
All the grown-up places you never went

All things he ever wished are left behind

- Steven Sater, from Spring Awakening


It's during quiet moments that we think about what we never had. What regrets there are. What has been left behind.

Are the choices we make worth the sacrifices given up, the compromises settled on?



Imagine someone you think has it all. There's a guy I know...

There's another guy I know...

Well, it's all irrelevant really. People come and go, and they touch us in different ways. But home is where the heart is.

Imagine this: I woke up about 10 minutes before I started this post, thinking thoughts. Stuff I need to do and have others do whirring through my mind. Mon C, thousands of miles away and 8 hours ahead in China, needed to action somethings by email.

I woke up thinking about that. I thought to check my BlackBerry to see if it had been done. As I did so I saw his first email. It had just come through as I looked. I called him briefly. He was, in that very instant I called, doing the second email.

Imagine that. All that time and distance apart and yet I feel we're linked. The very moment I woke and thought of him doing something, he was doing it.

3 comments:

Alan said...

Guilt and worry - the useless emotions. Guilt about the past; worry about the future. The 'what if' thoughts.
Whereas all that really matters is here & now.
And you are right - technology gives us a link that transcends distance and means that the here & now does not need to be location-specific.
Here & now and there & now can be the same in fact. Always useful when b/f is far away.

Paul Brownsey said...

"All that time and distance apart and yet I feel we're linked. The very moment I woke and thought of him doing something, he was doing it."
Don't you find that even when you're under the same roof you sometimes know what each other is thinking, know what they're about to say?

Paul

MadeInScotland said...

No guilt, but plenty of worry! This post was not about either; in a strange way it was a celebration of stuff.

Worry - well, now you know what that was all about. It was, and is, the most stressful thing I've experienced.

Here & Now being There & Now I like - but I'm accustomed to mon C being away and despite the lack of him, it's easy. What I mean is there in no sense of unease about his absence.

The genesis of this post was a little more obscure, and more about you the reader than than me the writer!

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